Yeah, all the goodbyes I was just postponing till the very last moment. But once you just have to say them. But actually... They are just see you soons. The world is a small place, we can find each other if we really want to.

I always get so easily into the nostalgic, sentimental, emotional mood, sometimes I like to cry and let myself feel the generousity of self-pity but sometimes I don't like it at all. But now - I just cannot be like that since the story hasn't ended yet. As long as I live it keeps going on and then we can always see each other again, we just have to keep in contact, hear each others voice... And live in the present - because if we always wait for something oe someone we can get really easily disappointed by the encounter and miss a lot of wonderful things which are actually happening to and around us.  

So on Wednesday (two days ago) I went to Brugge (woooow, how surprising, I know). We had a little come together in Republic before Dogucan left. My nostalgic instict just didn't allow me not to think about last October, that this was the first place I went out with Emel and the guys, where my social life began in Belgium. We drank beer, talked, had great time together as always.

Then we went back to Steven's place where Dogucan moved for his last two days, smoked waterpipe, listened to music, chilled out a bit.

On Thursday... The morning started with a bit of rain after some nice, sunny days. He came to Oostende just for a short while. We went into the Saint Paulus cathedral - I've never been inside before, strange. No, not strange, you know - you've been living at the place for long months so you just don't visit the most significant sights. Then we sat on the seaside while the wind was blowing really strong. Actually it was a dream of mine when I came here - sitting or walking on the seaside with someone... someone special. And voila, our dreams just come true. And at the station we didn't say goodbye. We said see you soon - as we say to many-many-many people - promises, future planes but we just don't keep them because of this stupid little things - time, distance, money :P  But this time... I feel it is different. We didn't promise anything, didn't closed the box or put a label on it - because we know we will really see each other. In Budapest, in Istanbul, in Brugge, in any other part of the world...

I just learnt to follow my feelings a few month ago. It is a wonderful thing and I'd like to live my whole life like that. It is only up to me. So I will do that - just follow them wherever they lead me.